If this is going to be a Christian nation that doesn't help the poor, either we have to pretend that Jesus was just as selfish as we are, or we've got to acknowledge that He commanded us to love the poor and serve the needy without condition and then admit that we just don't want to do it."
-Stephen Colbert

Thursday, January 5, 2012

Pain free?

I haven't mentioned the fact that I have been pain and narcotic free for the past five weeks. Which is very odd because I am NOT using the Spinal Cord Stimulator that is implanted in my back. I check its battery every once in awhile but it never changes. What a waste of pain and tears that was! I am still using Gabapentin, a lot of it. And I've been told that I will always need it. My PA and I have decided to try cutting back on the Gabapentin and see what happens. It would be great if I could cut the dosage in half.
Back to the pain or lack thereof...I still get twinges of pain but not enough to warrant a Percocet or Norco. Now here's the odd part; since I had pain constantly for four years, I'm not sure that I like its absence. I'm wary of this new situation and would feel better if everything was back to the way it was. I know, it doesn't make sense but the pain was 'mine' and I knew how to manage it. It was familiar and this new feeling; no pain, is suspicious.
I know that nerves can grow new pathways and perhaps that is part of the explanation for the lack of pain. I guess I should just try getting used to it.

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